Dead-Resurrected [Practice to be Perfect to be a Nobody]

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

wow... time sure flies. 2 years ago, a less mature[and shorter] trombonist i was, has turned from a 'ZERO' to a 'HERO'. from the noob which had to be covered by my seniors 2 years ago. Now i am the FIRST seat of the trombone section, leading the way for my section.

a much much nervous me standing at the waiting area... thinking of many stuffs. this question keep appearing in my mind -would history repeat itself?...

'victoria school (pauses) Silver'

thats was 2007. i guess the aftermath still affected me. i didnt dare to aim high. everytime asked by an alumni, i would say 'silver'. gold was reachable but not this time.. and gold with honours was impossible- or so i thought

this year, i'm much more nervous... however, even if i'm nervous i must act as though i'm super confident, so as to let my juniors relax too. BUT HOW IMPOSSIBLE WAS THAT. i have damn solo-.-.... if i miss it. WOOHOOO HAPPY BIRTHDAY. byebye gold~~~

overture No.2 and than Symphonic movement by vaclav nelhybel. o boy, didn't we show the judges what we're made up of. we played out hearts out. although anxiety got the better of us in parts here and there. WE PULLED IT OFF. despite some messy parts here and there.

i remember counting the 4 dreaded bars before my solo. haha. though my solo is only 2 bars and quite simple... it was my first.. afterall. '1..2..3..4..2..2..3...4..3...2...3...4...4..2...3...4..1..and @#@$#@^' theres no musical symbol so i just had to use those random sh1t to substitute for sound -__-.

soon the results were announced. 'band 125, victoria school GOLD' we werent like cresent girls or yuying whom had scream their lungs out and almost made us who were sitting in front of them DEAF. neither were we emo until we cry. i just clapped, that was my first reaction. next, was a huge sigh of relief...

gold with honours was what many said we could have gotten if we hadn't screwed up. some pointed fingers at me and said 'walao why u rush/lag' blahblah. i felt.. is this the time to do this? if this bond we developed is less or value than the medal we are gonne receive. than go ahead. blame all you one. i'm proud and have no regrets. i'm not gonna say that we should have deserved a goldwithhonours. learn to be happy with what you have. pleeeeeeeaaaaaaasssssssseee. even though i'm not SECTION LEADER, i would hate it if pple come to me directly and blame it on me, saying it could have been the deciding factor. BULLSH!T. at least talk behind my back la. so i wont find out...

and so. sec fours ran wild inside the band room. soccer inside band room. than rugby.. than basketball. than soccer again. spamming and shouting like mad people. than we randomly played each other's instrument. haha so fun play percusion. THOUGH IT IS STRICTLY PROHIBITED. ARGH WHO CARES~ .

we blasted pop songs had, even had a miny disco party where people dance anyhow in the dark. lol...
it was certainly one of the most fun days this year i've ever had.

*sigh of relief* a huge burden lifted off. VSCB GOLD, expectations were met, though not exceeded. but i'm proud of myself and the band. now i'm left we my FINAL event.the 23rd musical world on june 12 =D
btw who want tickets? buy from me. -.-

with this i shall closed another chapter of my band life.... VSCB FOREVER!

Alone at Home Thinking ... [4/07/2009 08:09:00 PM]

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Monday, January 19, 2009

ok. from now on, i'd try my best to use acceptable english in my blog entries. [lots of laughters] =)

i'm seriously stumped.
sometimes i don't really get my class yet sometimes i wonder if they play a huge part in making me who i am today. recently received my edusave scholarship for being in the top 5% in Victoria school.
hmm. come to think of it. its my first time being in the top 5% and only my 2nd time receiving such a scholarship, the other being last year top 10%.

haha. issit because of the pressure of being in a top class? 5B,6B was awesome but wasnt really the best. 1I,2I was definitely not the best. yet somehow i find myself performing much better in 3A. o man i really remember it clearly, back in 2006, i couldn't even break into top 30 in school. in 2007, things were improving and i got 6th in class, 14th in school. i was really very surprised already and thought that i'd really peaked at sec 2. was this a good thing? this left me isolated from band, being the only person in 3A. after one year of being in 3A, i find myself thinking like an 'ELITIST'. sometimes things like 'why can't they be like me?' or 'can't they just be normal?' kind of stuff appears in my mind. its definitely insulting if i were to say it.

recently, i told yun sol that i revised around every 2 days 30mins-1h on a subject. he called me mad. eh?! i try reasoning to him saying that i'm already 'slack' in my class. but everyone calls me a mugger in band. in class, i call other people mugger. how ironic. i find myself really affected by peer pressure. i once made a reply, when asked by a fellow bandmate why am i studying in the morning. i said, maybe cynically but it had some truth in in, 'being in my class, smart is not enough. you'd have to be smarter to 'own' ' this was met with loads of 'wtf walao?' by him.

though i wouldn't show my fear when exams are approaching. but who can deny that they aren't stress, unless their lying. has this 'competitive nature' of me and my class allowed me to show my potential? laughs* in 2008. i got my breakthrough, 4th in class, 4th in school. when i received my scholarship. i thought. what would it be like if i'm in an average class. a class very much like 2I? whether being this smart is a good or bad thing is still a question mark.

why the hell do we actually do this stuff. is it all for experience? this is 2009, the most important year in Victoria School. have i reached my peak? or have i not. 4a'08 left a near impossible to defeat average l1r5 of 7.3, 18- 6 pointers, 10- 7 pointers. meaning nearly the whole class are garuanteed a spot in Victoria junior college.

i'd must be a joke if i say i do not want to join VJC. but, i have my doubts. what if everyone in VJC have views like an elitist, or the classes are very much like mine now, competitiveness at the top. who knows? i say i hate this kind of attitude. but, who am i to criticise. sometimes i really have desires to defeat some people in studies. i will not deny that sometimes i feel pissed when a particular person scores better than me. 4A oh 4A. being in a class where rivals>friends . is it really a blessing in disguise?

i wonder. seeing how i've underperformed in primary school, i'm finally 'flying above' most people right now. but. is being at the top a good thing?

aiming for a 7 point in o'lvl. is it a goal worth mentioning?

Alone at Home Thinking ... [1/19/2009 07:02:00 PM]

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Wednesday, January 07, 2009

hoho! back to school~
feelin so lethargic. my 'motor' still on gear 1.
its gd to see familiar faces though. most of my teachers havent change. [THANK GOD!]
except for mother tongue.
he bin bin 'river ice ice'.
first time in my 4 years in VS i must get serious for MT. walao.

anyway. changed my seat to sit with nic poh. no longer with TANK.[no world war ^^]
everyday we bastard each other like mad. how ironic as a new class rule has been set on monday 'no insulting your fellow classmates, if you do you will be fined $0.50' lame eh? like that, we'd have been fine 20 over dollars

anyway, the future for band is still uncertain. many things happened and this time what happened has been the first in like? decades? i cant believe what is happening. though i really feel like letting all my fustration out here. i promised the BM not to blow this matter up... not until its resolved.

JAN 10 manjusri band CONCERT woots. ticket sales: 20+/150
zomg at least we're only performing as guest. =O

Alone at Home Thinking ... [1/07/2009 08:11:00 PM]

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Thursday, January 01, 2009

firstly. HAPPY NEW YEAR.
though it seems that the 'feel' this year is somewhat different from last year.
i feel less anticipated too.

Nodame Cantabile
cantabile-a person who plays music as though its singing and by hearing.
its such a nice japanese drama. the actress is kinda retarded but since shes paired up with a genius musician it just adds up to the fun ^^

plus i fell in love with its opening music and the ending music.
beethoven's Symphony 7 in A major movement I[Poco sostenuto — Vivace]
and Rhapsody in Blue by george gershwin!

this two pieces really inspired me and i wanna perform better in music.
accompanied with many other pieces along the show it kindas enchants you.
hmm i wonder if anyone is a cantabile in VSCB though. lol.

Alone at Home Thinking ... [1/01/2009 12:07:00 AM]

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Sunday, December 28, 2008

i feel so lazy for anything.
homework
revision
preparing for school
band practices
packing up my table
or even uploading photos i took during my visit to china
etc etc.

haix. i'm probably weird as i'm not looking forward to 2009.
o well. time can't be controlled. thats life~
in an blink of an eye it may just be over.

Alone at Home Thinking ... [12/28/2008 08:08:00 PM]

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Thursday, December 04, 2008

i dunno whats up but i have no mood to do anything -_-

finally started on my homework:
a MATHS [FINALLY DONE 87 QUESTIONS?!?! 5 questions dunno how do]
PHYSICS [rushed through]
CHEM [rushed through]

whats left:
MT
E MATHS

haix. tomorrow is Nan hua band concert which i'm gonna perform as guest band.
not looking forward to it. its just a waste of time.
very sianzZzzz

Alone at Home Thinking ... [12/04/2008 01:26:00 PM]

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Sunday, November 23, 2008

it was bound to happen.
and it did. finally
after practices which shouldn't be even called one.

RECOLLECTION II IS CANCELLED.

sec 1s better be happy. you wont have to embarrass yourself in front of your families.
o well, i tried . . .
but sry too bad. you guys [_______].

Alone at Home Thinking ... [11/23/2008 08:10:00 PM]

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About Me

About me =]

Andy[DeaDBursT]

Victoria School

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Trombone Section

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Acessories QM

Sec 3A'08-09

Sec 2I'06-07

6B05

CANCER - The Protector june 22 - july 22 Moody, emotional. May be shy. Very loving and caring.Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive and imaginative. Cautious. Touchy-feely kind of person. Needs love from others. Easily hurt, but sympathetic.

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My Family/relatives

VSCB!

Victoria school

My trombone

My handphone

memories of 6B05

Soccer with VSCBs

Msning/ visiting blogs =]

MISSIONS

Pillar of support for VSCB

To get into top 20 in school

to rid my fear of heights![lol]

grow even taller to 180cm